Plus, I get to watch my amazing husband at work. . . . .
. . . which always makes my heart go pitter patter!
And I have to admit, there's a definite joy for me in NOT being a professional musician.
I mean, other than the fact that no one would ever hire me. And I'd have to practice a lot more. But that's beside the point.
It is such a treat, such a privilege for me to play. When I get the oppportunity, to be able to sit in an orchestra, or this time around, sit in a chamber group - it is sheer joy. Not drudgery, not wondering when I'm going to get my union-sanctioned break, but joy.
There's just something - how to explain - there's an "in the moment" feeling, where the only thing I'm thinking about is the quality of my sound, working with the group, the phrase, intonation (ugh. always intonation). . . . . not about cleaning the house, solving the next kid issue, what's for dinner, our budget (ugh. always the budget), or tomorrow's schedule.
You get the picture, I think.
A moment. A few moments. To be, and enjoy, and make music.
It brings me great joy in my journey.
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